♥ ♥ ♥: It is as hard for me, as for you bby :(

Haiyaa. Bby, you operation nih, how? Kesiannnn nye. I know. Tak suke seh. Tapi i was one of those yang suruh dia go through the operation. I still hope he'll stop smoking after the operation. I know its hard, for me and Mama, can? That is weeks to go. Now im praying hard that the operation goes on smoothly. I just want to get this over and don't with. If can, i want to be at SGH now thankful that you're now out of the operating theater. I hate that place. That place remind me of the months and months Nenek had to be there, hours of waiting for her. Thankfully Nenek kuat, i nak you kuatkan diri. I tau you takut, i pun :( just pray. Meeting you later at five in the morning. Operation better be quick, i want see your face la baby. Kay, nak nangis. I know i once said i dislike you, but dislike and hate has a VERY different meaning. I still care for you deep down, and I've been telling you so many times, no matter how much we fight (nak masuk hari2), i still need you so much. Whatever happen, you're still my one and only favourite boy!